the courage of closing a door
Today is April Fools, and I have absolutely no intention to hide I hate April 1st with almost a particular passion.
I was that kid so annoyed at this day that I avoided going to school or work on april 1st, every single year.
Why you ask?
Because it’s a goddamn nightmare.
My brain can’t usually register when people joke to me 1 during the other days of the year, imagine how bad this day could feel for me when people try to joke over serious matters.
Yeah, I get hurt over stupid jokes. I never liked jokes which hurt people feelings.
The most fun I had organizing april fools jokes was having stupid icons on socmed or stuffs like that.
I wish we could go back to put badly drawn fishes on people’s backs, instead of joking about the release of an amazing game I would like to be real.
Well.
On another different point, probably the one that gave the title to the post, I think I reached a point I am completely bored with live service games.
Like I said in the past, Dragalia Lost and Tales of Crestoria closing down abruptly were like… an initial point of distaste for me toward these type of games, but the “recent” 2 closure of Tribe Nine felt like a button has been turned off toward those kind of games.
I tried playing Wuthering Waves. Continuing, at least, since wuwa is one of those games I have been still playing since day one.
Don’t get me wrong, I love wuwa, especially its story, but lately I can’t find the motivation to even open the game and do basic stuffs.
I tried Arknights Endfield in January, and I literally stopped playing in less than a month. They don’t spark joy anymore, to the point I think I’d totally rather play 150 hours of Solitaire on 50 warehouse games on switch 2 (not like it’s bad, I think for me it’s way more fun than gachas for sure)
I have been playing those kind of games for around ~12 years, but probably it’s time to come to terms with the fact I am not interested in them anymore. And it’s ok not liking the hip things. I am okay with playing what I want to play at the moment.
Hyper fixations are very cruel sometimes.